Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Unconditional Love and Tweaking the mp3 Cover

My youngest child had a rough evening. Getting back into the swing of things after Christmas break proved to be too much for her to handle. Do you have kids? Do you remember when they were babies, and at the end of the day, they'd have a meltdown for what seemed like an eternity? It was just their way of releasing all the leftover energy of the day and calming their little bodies down for sleep. That was always a painful time in our house. I'd sit and cry right along with them, because I didn't understand what was going on or what, if anything, I'd done to cause the crying spell. I don't miss that part of baby days. I thought we were finished with that phase...

Well, last night, LittleGirl had a meltdown. She was just plain 'ol mean to everyone. It was a nasty scene. I shamefully admit I lost my temper and did some yelling. I didn't even want to be around her. I didn't like her one little bit. Not that I said any of that to her; however, I conveyed my disapproval for behavior in too loud words. After things calmed down, and some alone-time in her room, LittleGirl tearfully appeared to apologize. She wrote me a note that almost broke my heart. It said, "Mom, I'm sorry I was mean. I know you hate me."

Ouch.

That little note pierced my heart. I wanted to sit and cry with her. I explained that, although I didn't like her actions and choices, I would always love her. No Matter What. I will ALWAYS LOVE her. She is special. She's my daughter. She is a part of me. She is loved. Unconditional love is a difficult concept to understand, isn't it? We feel guilty for our nasty actions, and beat ourselves up when our consciences kicks into high gear. We loathe our behavior, and expect everyone around us to loathe not only the behavior but ourselves as well. I don't think I can explain unconditional love through my words. I can better explain it through my actions. I'm hoping LittleGirl understands.

Tweaking the mp3 Cover

I know. I know. I said I would post the mp3 pattern. I will. The first cover turned out great. It came out as I envisioned, and Son#1 loves it. The pattern is almost ready. I'm a perfectionist who is tweaking her pattern. I'm working on a PDF file and should have it finished this afternoon. Please hang with me and stop back by later today.

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